Bad Day

Today has been horrible, I was planning on doing cleaning for a relative and got myself all ready to be ding tons of exercise only to be told this morning I can't do it till tomorrow. Immediately got anxious ( over what exactly ?!?) and felt fat as soon as I got out of bed. That was it my day ruined. Exercise was my only escape! Walked into town and the dog and now say here typing this I feel like I need to do more....
HELP!

Anorexia is a bitch. It makes you feel really bloated and horrible, then makes you feel that your already fat so you might as well binge of loads of crap. I didn't thankgod, but I have been so tempted. Like seriously, why does this illness even exist?! 

Not having a job doesn't help either, 7 days a week BORED. Need to find one, been looking for ages now and is getting frustrating all I do is go out so I have something to do but then this increases my thoughts of having to excercise! :( FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT!! honestly these words need to be in my head right now, but instead it's FAT FAT FAT FAT!!:(

To top it off my boyfriend is busy today and I really needed him to talk too :( 

Charlotte xxxxx